Since Monday I have been experiencing many different feelings and emotions. Mostly, I've been feeling angry. I know who I want to direct this anger at but then I feel guilty for having these feelings and shove them away. Praying at those times helps. I'm not sure I could handle things without that spirit around. I was praying before that things would work out for Dale. It didn't quite turn out the way my praying was intended, but I will hang in there since I can't see the bigger picture and need to be patient.
Sherry mentioned the blog as a journal, life history, etc... I'm feeling the same. I'm expressing my feelings to get them out there. As I type this and tears are falling it feels cathartic.
Life has changed for us without any choosing on our part. I hate feeling helpless, not knowing what to do to help the situation. I hate not knowing what to say to help.
On the other hand I've been feeling grateful. I'm grateful to those people who have called and expressed their support and love to Dale and me. It helps to know that people care and believe in him as much as I do.
I felt bad not including a picture with this posting so I looked in my computer to see what I could find. I decided the video is what everyone may need after reading my depressing post. This is Megan's little guy, Colby. He is two months younger than Rock, who in two weeks will revitalize me with his wonderful laugh.